Healing with the new moon in Scorpio and the full moon in Gemini
This month’s energy asked us to acknowledge epiphanies that bubbled over. What triggered the snot out of you? What affected you? What are you stuffing?
The shadow work, deep communication, and processing that has happened over the past few weeks brought up, needless to say, some childhood trauma and nerves that felt as raw as when I experienced them through those young years.
The deep wounds from childhood that surfaced for me dealt with passive aggressive communication with someone who was trying to get their own needs met through guilting and shaming. And it did trigger the snot out of me!
It sent me to a place where I had to evaluate my own boundaries and values and make a decision about how or if I was going to move forward in that kind of relationship. The trust was broken. Talk about a non hug-it-out situation. The unconsciousness part of that communication brought up so many experiences that were difficult for me when I was young—a lot of the reason being that I couldn’t get away from them.
The Outer Child, the concept explained in Taming Your Outer Child, by Susan Anderson, would haveresponded like a banshee trying to protect the sensitive inner child. At first my Outer Child was pissed. When the Outer Child comes forward, it’s an alert to the Adult self that all is not well in Wonder Land.
Using the Outer Child as a red flag can come in handy for the self-healer.
My Outer Child alert brought me to begin a process of healing that I’d stuffed for a long time. I needed and continue to need my own consistent acknowledgement to myself that I am important enough not to stay in a situation that is nothing but healing and nurturing, no matter what the reasons.
This, of course, brought me to the shadow work. Where am I being verbally or emotionally abusive in my life and to whom? (Besides my computer when it’s not working right!)
Then there was my Zel. Scorpio’s death stuff came in full blast. I had to be my truest adult self I’ve ever been and make the hard decision you never want to think about. I got her ashes back today.
I hope you have claimed your healing space this month and have been able to move forward in your own conscious evolution. I am honored to be among you wonderful healing Goddesses.