As the Indigo Travels Through Life

AthenaSome Indigos fall right into their bliss taking on challenges as warriors

But for some it’s a struggle to become aligned. It can be overwhelming and unnerving when a faulty support system is in place or life seems to create stress that feels unmanageable.

Just recently, my boyfriend, who is a photographer, shared with me some pictures of three kids. Their father had commissioned some individual as well as family portraits of his daughter, who was ascending into her senior year of high school, a son who was in college and another son who was just graduating college.

All three were transitioning into a new phase of their lives. Seeing these pictures made such an impression on me—their laughter, their innocence, and then in more serious pictures, their depth. Their eyes told stories of all-knowing wisdom, yet they were just getting ready, in many ways, to venture off for the first time on their own. Their confidence and curiosity blended with questions about how the world really works, bellowed from their black and white images.

Thinking back to that time in my own life, I realize that I feel freer now, as an adult, than I did when I was first going to college after high school

It took a little experience for me to have confidence in my own voice and find my way through the currents. Some are blessed to see their entire future ahead of them. It took me, however, some time to get my wings.

In “The Book of Secrets” by Deepak Chopra, he uses the example of butterfly metamorphosis to illustrate how everything is One. He explains the process of how the caterpillar builds his cocoon and then morphs into a butterfly, “What goes on invisibly inside the chrysalis remains deeply mysterious.”

We know that the caterpillar actually morphs into a liquid consistency before reconstituting into the body of a butterfly. What Deepak refers to as “One reality” comes from his understanding that there is Universal intelligence at work. Cells, hormones and chemicals know what to do to reconstitute into a butterfly from a caterpillar without being told when, what or how to do so. It is this natural evolution that happens to all of us that we cannot control. Our hearts beat, the caterpillar morphs, the day turns into night, all connected through time and space.

In this harmony of physical evolution and Oneness, we, as humans, experience an emotional and spiritual metamorphosis as well

From child seeker to adult wisdom, we evolve. Indigo children come through this life to shatter illusion and to build truth. As an Indigo adult, their journey continues on another level. Learning and experiencing the world as a child, then growing up and believing in the power to move mountains through courage—this is an Indigo finding their way to divine purpose and Joy.

I can now offer advice that would have helped me on my journey starting out at the age where I thought I knew everything, and in fact, had no idea what was in store. My intent is to assist parents of Indigos and Indigos themselves who are moving to the next chapter in their lives, finding their place in society.

Stay tuned for As the Indigo Travels Through Life — 6 Things I Wish I had known!

 

 

 

The Evolved Indigo—Forgiveness

The Cage is an Illusion

One night I dreamed I was wearing a T-shirt that said “compassion” across the front. Slowly it all came together. When you acknowledge to yourself that you are no longer under law, “I am under grace, I don’t have to be the warrior anymore,” you can open yourself to compassion; for yourself and for others.

In the Bhagavad Gita, the sacred Hindu text, the god Krishna tells yogi Arjuna that it is a misjudgment to focus on the outcomes of our efforts rather than on the efforts themselves,

“The man who is devoted and not attached to the fruit of his actions obtains tranquility.”

This was difficult for me, but I had to face the shift in consciousness and accept myself for who I was, a complete universe in my own right. I had to remind myself that my ego was the only thing that made me feel fearful, alone, and not accepted. I had to forgive myself. Detaching emotionally, even a bit at a time, can create a monumental turning point in life, faith, and forgiveness.

Grace is honoring the divinity of a situation, person, place, thing or existence, while not dealing with it, blocking it or denying it, is excusing it. Through Grace we forgive.  All we have to focus on is Grace. When you change your present, you can change your future. Whenever I feel sidetracked I say this mantra to myself to help me stay focused, “All you need to do today is love being alive, even it it’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done.”  I remind myself to be grateful that I’ve chosen to come into a life, and now of all times, to be part of this brilliant madness that we call the Universe.

Fierce grace is not detachment. It’s the ultimate unity.

When you can move beyond your bubble of experience and see the connection through the Universe, the guilt and shame, the stuff of walls, releases because you sense its illusion. When you “wag more and bark less,” things seem to fall into place. Living your life in service brings about peace. Through grace we forgive. All we have to focus on is grace.

HSPs/Empaths, at the height of sensitivity, anxiety, or stress, can feel that the world is black and white, good and evil. How we teach them the ways of life, how to respect and forgive, is especially important. Raising our children in this supportive manner and teaching through experience encourages Indigos, Crystals, and Rainbows who are coming into their gifts. By acknowledging these personal self-realizations, we honor our children giving them what they need now. We honor ourselves by speaking our Warrior’s truths.

I have great respect for my Warrior. I am ready to forgive.

This post is the third in a three-part series.

Read the first: The Evolved Indigo—When the Warrior is Ready to Forgive
Read the second: The Evolved Indigo—The Warrior

The Evolved Indigo—The Warrior

What is the Warrior?

The warrior is the Indigo who takes one for the team as a victim soul and their personal process of self-protection and the efforts to protect others in their search for truth. Nice and tidy when you say it, but not so while in the trenches. As an adult Indigo survivor, I had to come to terms with my warrior.

My warrior was the fierce Isis, who took on liars and cheaters and thieves without abandon and with no mercy. I saw, many times, only one-sided injustice where dynamics run deep and muddy. I did my job, and I did it well. I broke up families by making truth mandatory and tragedies public when they wanted to brush truth under the rug or bury it in the backyard. I built walls between sisters and was the slayer of child molesters’ once pristine reputations.

For some warriors, it doesn’t end when the physical experience is over. There are psychological repercussions. I feel that I went through a kind of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I was reliving abuse and abandonment over and over and couldn’t let it go—because I felt that if I did, the importance of what I had endured would have been lost.

Letting go of the Warrior’s Initial Job

Triggers can rear their ugly heads when any experience seems threatening. And by threatening I mean anything that has reminiscence of betrayal, feeling emotionally unsafe, or actual abuse. Identifying hot buttons and deciding why some things trigger and other things don’t are important in order to evaluate how they represent present circumstances.

I have learned so much about myself, through my reactions to different situations way after the fact of abuse.  Asking yourself,

“Why does this anger me—make me cry, laugh, or somehow make me remember someone from when I was young.”

Evaluating how you can be real with your thoughts and feelings before you react is extremely important during the forgiving process.

When I realized that my emotions were connected to past traumas of abandonment and abuse and that they had nothing to do with present situations and circumstances, I was able to clearly identify trauma in my life. Thinking about each situation that I’ve reacted to, it’s amazing and fascinating to me that I have carried with me so closely and so deeply and for such a long period of time these traumas without peace. I had been acting them out again and again.

Understanding a Better Way to Create Love

It didn’t have to be through constant repetition of loss and abandonment. It could be through learning from my past and teaching others by what I had experienced. It could be, this time around, through forgiveness.

Through my yoga practice I’ve learned that many times our identity is enmeshed in personal dialog about past traumas. We tend to cling to emotional times that are familiar; yet severing ties from habitual responses is imperative in the process of moving on.

To learn from our experiences, we need to look at our emotional patterns in detail and identify the triggers. We must then make a conscious decision to move away from that pattern and acknowledge every moment when you recognize the pattern resurfacing. Then tell yourself that it is now time to pick up the pieces.

This post is the second in a three-part series.

Read the first: The Evolved Indigo—When the Warrior is Ready to Forgive

And keep a lookout for:

The Evolved Indigo—Forgiveness