The practice of Microcosmic Orbit has brought my attention to my own deep healing process. Here is one of the epiphanies I experienced during this practice and the recorded Galactic MicroOrbit Guided Meditation Link so you can try it yourself!
For the last 50 days of the Goddess Reiki Apprenticeship this year, I hosted a Zoom guided 50 Days of MicroCosmic Orbit… Changing up your routine, getting into the practice of daily meditation and consciously raising your vibration changes your life. With the world and social climate and the many astrological influences right now, this practice both prepared me and helped me stay conscious to my alignment with my Higher-Self awareness.
I kept a journal through the 50 days of MicroOrbiting, knowing that this type of practice would bring about change influencing my insides and my outsides! I wanted to keep some notes about what those personal changes and experiences would be for me. I thought I knew what they would be, but the unexpected surfaced.
I’ve been recognizing so much lately how I become when I’m defensive. I get defensive when I’m emotionally threatened somehow. When I’ve felt safe to be myself, vulnerable, sensitive, but then realize abruptly that I’m not safe the way I had thought I was. I’m betrayed somehow, or I’ve given my trust to someone who has broken it, or I’ve held expectations too high and then come to realize that truth when those false expectations are dashed.
When I get defensive, I hold my breath, I hold my body in a way that it can’t relax. My voice is different, my energy is different. It’s no longer open. I realize I was holding myself this way the whole time I was growing up. I wasn’t safe, I was always threatened. I don’t like holding myself in this way. It feels so closed off from everything I really do want to experience.
One of the Soul Lessons I came in to become an expert at… to stay open in the face of emotional threat, emotional betrayals, and disappointment. How to maintain the presence of my essence, Truth, even when the Personality-Self is fearful. How to see everyone around me as a light being in a physical body, how to not be as influenced by the “Avatar” of the Soul I am interacting with more than the Soul itself. What a doozy of a Soul Lesson..
This self-protection process that I seem to have learned in this life is to ultimately retreat. That most situations are not hug-it-out-type situations and that everyone is in their own process at their own speeds, so they usually don’t match up.. The healing and figuring out and de-charging isn’t at a mutual place, so I do my own process of healing and forgiving.. (That includes a lot of Reiki, talking to guides and reevaluating how I’ve held my self-worth.)
During this 50 Days of MicroOrbit, I asked someone’s Higher-Self to meet me in the Cathedral of Souls, a neutral destination in the astrals where healing interactions can happen with Higher-Selves, Ascended Masters, and Angels. I asked them there so our Higher-Selves could communicate in neutrality about a situation that took place in which I felt I had again held trust in someone’s motivations placing my expectations of that connection and trust on a pedastal and was now disappointed.
When we were there, she was relaxed and loving and kind. She told me about her own sense of worthiness, how her Personality-Self tried to compensate by holding the appearance of never being wrong, always having the answers. How others opinions of her identity, of who she was and what she was capable of, were important in her process of learning. We talked about her soul lesson in this being the study of lack and how she was experimenting with giving herself lots of examples in this life to be competitive with others.
This whole conversation brought so much understanding to me. It also showed me where I was in my process with lack mentality, what I hold myself to with obligation. It brought to my attention things and situations I was continuing to put time and energy and effort into that I was complete with or that the needs for my own growth had evolved into something different that no longer needed their original containers.
The Universe making things uncomfortable or some type of scary, often times is the Higher-Self alerting the Personality-Self that it’s time to change it up… How long will you allow the Personality-Self to be in this space of upset? How will you change your surroundings so that you can experience the energy of joy and happiness? Flipping that lightswitch within changes everything in the surrounding atmosphere.
I’ve received much needed clarity from consciously getting into a neutral state and raising my frequency by daily MicroOrbiting. This practice sets space for the Personality and subconscious mind to relax, release those defensive protective mechanisims and connect with the Higher-Self, connect to Oneness Awareness. The healing that is taking place for me, coming from heart-space, being able to remove fear and shame and guilt and obligation, has moved me into a peaceful awareness that helps me continue holding the space I need to as a soul who has come in to help the planet.
I am grateful. I am grateful. I am grateful.
Om mani padme hum.
You can see for yourself how this practice heals your experience. Here is the recorded Galactic Microcosmic Orbit guided meditation.