The Evolved Indigo—Forgiveness

The Cage is an Illusion

One night I dreamed I was wearing a T-shirt that said “compassion” across the front. Slowly it all came together. When you acknowledge to yourself that you are no longer under law, “I am under grace, I don’t have to be the warrior anymore,” you can open yourself to compassion; for yourself and for others.

In the Bhagavad Gita, the sacred Hindu text, the god Krishna tells yogi Arjuna that it is a misjudgment to focus on the outcomes of our efforts rather than on the efforts themselves,

“The man who is devoted and not attached to the fruit of his actions obtains tranquility.”

This was difficult for me, but I had to face the shift in consciousness and accept myself for who I was, a complete universe in my own right. I had to remind myself that my ego was the only thing that made me feel fearful, alone, and not accepted. I had to forgive myself. Detaching emotionally, even a bit at a time, can create a monumental turning point in life, faith, and forgiveness.

Grace is honoring the divinity of a situation, person, place, thing or existence, while not dealing with it, blocking it or denying it, is excusing it. Through Grace we forgive.  All we have to focus on is Grace. When you change your present, you can change your future. Whenever I feel sidetracked I say this mantra to myself to help me stay focused, “All you need to do today is love being alive, even it it’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done.”  I remind myself to be grateful that I’ve chosen to come into a life, and now of all times, to be part of this brilliant madness that we call the Universe.

Fierce grace is not detachment. It’s the ultimate unity.

When you can move beyond your bubble of experience and see the connection through the Universe, the guilt and shame, the stuff of walls, releases because you sense its illusion. When you “wag more and bark less,” things seem to fall into place. Living your life in service brings about peace. Through grace we forgive. All we have to focus on is grace.

HSPs/Empaths, at the height of sensitivity, anxiety, or stress, can feel that the world is black and white, good and evil. How we teach them the ways of life, how to respect and forgive, is especially important. Raising our children in this supportive manner and teaching through experience encourages Indigos, Crystals, and Rainbows who are coming into their gifts. By acknowledging these personal self-realizations, we honor our children giving them what they need now. We honor ourselves by speaking our Warrior’s truths.

I have great respect for my Warrior. I am ready to forgive.

This post is the third in a three-part series.

Read the first: The Evolved Indigo—When the Warrior is Ready to Forgive
Read the second: The Evolved Indigo—The Warrior

The Evolved Indigo—The Warrior

What is the Warrior?

The warrior is the Indigo who takes one for the team as a victim soul and their personal process of self-protection and the efforts to protect others in their search for truth. Nice and tidy when you say it, but not so while in the trenches. As an adult Indigo survivor, I had to come to terms with my warrior.

My warrior was the fierce Isis, who took on liars and cheaters and thieves without abandon and with no mercy. I saw, many times, only one-sided injustice where dynamics run deep and muddy. I did my job, and I did it well. I broke up families by making truth mandatory and tragedies public when they wanted to brush truth under the rug or bury it in the backyard. I built walls between sisters and was the slayer of child molesters’ once pristine reputations.

For some warriors, it doesn’t end when the physical experience is over. There are psychological repercussions. I feel that I went through a kind of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I was reliving abuse and abandonment over and over and couldn’t let it go—because I felt that if I did, the importance of what I had endured would have been lost.

Letting go of the Warrior’s Initial Job

Triggers can rear their ugly heads when any experience seems threatening. And by threatening I mean anything that has reminiscence of betrayal, feeling emotionally unsafe, or actual abuse. Identifying hot buttons and deciding why some things trigger and other things don’t are important in order to evaluate how they represent present circumstances.

I have learned so much about myself, through my reactions to different situations way after the fact of abuse.  Asking yourself,

“Why does this anger me—make me cry, laugh, or somehow make me remember someone from when I was young.”

Evaluating how you can be real with your thoughts and feelings before you react is extremely important during the forgiving process.

When I realized that my emotions were connected to past traumas of abandonment and abuse and that they had nothing to do with present situations and circumstances, I was able to clearly identify trauma in my life. Thinking about each situation that I’ve reacted to, it’s amazing and fascinating to me that I have carried with me so closely and so deeply and for such a long period of time these traumas without peace. I had been acting them out again and again.

Understanding a Better Way to Create Love

It didn’t have to be through constant repetition of loss and abandonment. It could be through learning from my past and teaching others by what I had experienced. It could be, this time around, through forgiveness.

Through my yoga practice I’ve learned that many times our identity is enmeshed in personal dialog about past traumas. We tend to cling to emotional times that are familiar; yet severing ties from habitual responses is imperative in the process of moving on.

To learn from our experiences, we need to look at our emotional patterns in detail and identify the triggers. We must then make a conscious decision to move away from that pattern and acknowledge every moment when you recognize the pattern resurfacing. Then tell yourself that it is now time to pick up the pieces.

This post is the second in a three-part series.

Read the first: The Evolved Indigo—When the Warrior is Ready to Forgive

And keep a lookout for:

The Evolved Indigo—Forgiveness

The Evolved Indigo—When the Warrior is Ready to Forgive

When the Warrior is Ready to Forgive

Throughout my life, I managed to make it even though I often felt very isolated. In adulthood, and of course in hindsight, I see how my life could have played out differently had I been surrounded by those who believed in me and supported me. I am a strong believer in things happening for a reason.  The adults who surrounded me as a child did the best they could with what they knew how to do. Had they known better, they would have done better. And that’s why we’re here to teach each other now—because we can do better.  Teachers of self-empowerment could have made such a difference in my life as a warrior.

We must remember that Indigos share a purpose: to educate and transform.

This is done in two stages for the Indigo—the warrior stage and the stage of forgiveness. As I’ve mentioned in previous articles, I feel that one of my services to the spiritual community is expressing the importance of messages alerted to us not only by our personal guides and angels, but by our children. In order to do it better it is so important that we are aware.

This post is the first of a three part series. Be on the lookout for:

The Evolved Indigo—The Warrior
The Evolved Indigo—Forgiveness


Nurturing Indigos and HSPs—Unconditional Love

Unconditional Love

Trust nurtures unconditional love, a learning process with love as a guiding light.

We must remember that love means the opposite of fear! Isolation is scary. There is nothing kids need more from their parents and community than support, stability, and reassurance. No matter what is presented, the message that change is okay and life works itself out because there is balance, is important to the HSP child. Highly sensitive children need to know they’re okay. They need to know that they will always be loved, even if they’re angry, sad, tired or misunderstood. Creating a safe environment for these kids to thrive is the most important part of their self-empowerment.

Enlightenment in the home comes from uplifting and creative stimuli that surround us and our families, encouragement, trust and unconditional love. All of these powerful ingredients must be present to enable growth of a higher kind. My friend and spiritual counselor for many years, Rev. Anne Roberts, once told me,

“Love is all there is. We are either giving it or asking for it at any given time.”

I find this to be the key and truth in any difficult situation.

Calling upon the power of your own compassion and teaching this way of life by example is the greatest gift you can give to yourself and to others. How we support Indigos, Crystals and Rainbows coming into their gifts as highly sensitive kids is a perfect opportunity to generate awareness and unconditional Universal love.

This post is the fifth in a series of five.

Read the first: Creating the Enlightened Nest
Read the second: Nurturing Indigos and HSPs—Environment
Read the third: Nurturing Indigos and HSPs—Encouragement
Read the fourth: Nurturing Indigos and HSPs—Trust

7 of Swords

Up:
Something sneaky is going on. This card indicates that tricks are at play. Someone is trying to deceive the seeker in some way. If all of the surrounding cards are positive, it can mean that the seeker is being paranoid and is dealing with personal trust issues. This may come in as a feeling that the seeker is always having to look over their shoulder—Otherwise, he’s right. Someone is taking advantage and possibly physically stealing from the seeker. Paired with the 5 of Swords, it isn’t pretty. It can indicate theft or infidelity. With the Lovers reversed, sexual abuse.

Reversed:
A triumph over infidelity, theft, or deception. Amends are attempted and it’s up to the seeker to accept and forgive if he is ready.